I've heard it said
that Life is a Lie.
If Life is a Lie,
is Death the Truth?
Christians say Death
is dead.
So if Death is the truth
is truth dead?

These are the thoughts,
These are the things;
that ponder and wonder.
and run through my head.

We shouldn't judge,
otherwise we'll be be judged;
and we're judged in the end.
Yet, if we follow the rule of gold,
isn't it okay to judge the judge?
If so, where's the jury?

These are the thoughts,
These are the things;
that pondr and wonder
and run through my head.

Weakness is the opposite
of Strength. Sometimes
it is Strength to show
Weakness. How is that
possble. An opposite
justifying itself?

These are the thoughts
These are the things;
that ponder and wonde
and run through my head.

If we love a thing,
a person a place.
We keep it close to us.
If we love a thing
a person a place
we must let it go.
Can these both be true?
If we let it go
yet it doesn't go;
does it love us?
If we let it go
yet it never returns
does it love us?
Will we ever know?

These are the thoughts,
These are the things,
that ponder and wonder
and run through my head.

Will I sleep this night?
Will I dream?
What is a dream?
What will it be about?
Will I wake up in the middle?
Will I wake up in the end?
Will I wake up at all?

These are the thoughts
These are teh things
that ponder and wonder
and run through my head.

Will it snow? Will it rain?
WIll it matter? And as I stand
at the worldly window,
in the rain and at the
darkened doorway to my soul;

These are the thoughts
These are the things
that ponder and wonder
and run through my head.
And leave me unwhole.

If no one loves you,
Why should you love?

If no one cares for you,
Why should you care?

If no one talks for you,
Why should you talk?

If no one accepts you,
Why should you accept others?

If no one is there for you,
Why should you be there for others?


Love if you're loved!

Care if you're cared for!

Talk if you're talked to!

Accept if you're accepted!

Exist if you're wanted!

It soared over the constantly shifting soft satin of my chaotic, thoughtful mind
Like a fleeting albatross across the violent, calm, tide wracked seas
I saw it in passing as my mind moved through fluffy clouds of insubstantial somethings
And felt a momentary sense of déjà vu, the fertile oasis in the arid, wind swept desert

It rested momentarily in my wiser unconscious
As I dreamt of eyes which spoke as silent days passed
then fluttered away on ragged wings
Of the monotonous normality of stress filled boredom
Once I touched it with the long reaching arm of my thoughts,
Though it stretched them to their fullest extension
then there was a moment of pure unadulterated clarity
Like transparent shimmering rainbows

this made me begin searching for it,
As my face became more experienced and my mind grew quicker
but it continued to elude me, fluttering and dancing
Between my thoughts as I strained my neck to catch a glimpse
until eventually I stopped looking and searching,
I began to see in the more orderly chaos of my mind
and sat deep in contemplation,
Sifting through the sands of a thousand compiled memories

Oh, what joy I found, as my hair turned silver I found gold and was calmed.
I held it for a while, then let it fall, let my spirit float in the pure simplicity of knowledge

Oh, the miniscule joy of a lifetime of looking
That it should come to this;